Best Friends

Man i am getting worse and worse at posting here (sorry nat.... if you still read this that is)

So the first time everyone left for college it hit me pretty hard... because it seemed i was the only one that stayed home... well some friends came back and some friends only seemed to come back... ive lost touch with who used to be my best friend, he has lost himself to drinking, smoking pot and playing the imfamous WOW.

Now i dont mind that he's doing this, but i dont hear from him that often, the first summer back (06) i saw him 4 times in a 3 month span, and the second summer back (07) i saw him once... and then i didnt hear from him untill my 21rst birthday last summer (July of 08) in those 3 years he was kicked outta school on acedemic probation for drinking to much not going to class and playing WOW to all hours, lost a loan and had his parents support him while he went to community college (down there of all places... i mean who goes to community college an hour away when theres one right in your town?)... instead of going home to free room and board and cheaper community college he resigns the lease and i never hear from him...

Now i know i got into a rant... and i could rant about it ALL day but thats not why im writing, im writing because my other best friend is leaving for school in hawaii and i dont think shes coming back either (hell if i could go to hawaii i probably wouldnt either) but shes different... the exact opposite actually, straight A's, in a sorority, and other numerous clubs, works a full time job and still trys her best to maintain a social life.

(by the way i could writ a novel on what i want to say to these 2... but ill summerize for the sake of this blog entry)

She says she want to go away to find herself... to finally let loose and be herself, she has a conflict to do that here for some reason, but i dont blame her. she needs to unwind and find herself shes been couped up way to long and pushed around long enough.

To one i say good luck, may the future bring you happiness and may you keep succeeding in everytihng you do, i hope your travels blossum you into the woman i have always seen in you since we first met, i will cherrish our time together... the good and the bad, we have worked hard to get where we are at... im not going to lie i am sad you are going, you'll no longer be just around the corner and i wont see you as often... but i am still only a message away.

And to the other i say... come home you are lost and need help... trust me... trust all of us from home who have seen you who expirenced your drunken retardedness... you try to speak philosophe and bring a great discussion to the table but you lack the common sense to see the error in your ways... your discussons are an endless circle of rambling in which you try to play the devils advocate but in reality you are just instigating fights to a subject you have no knowledge of in the first place, and therefore shouldnt be speaking of at all.

In the end i say goodbye to 2 friends both of which may never come back, they both were a huge impact on my life and i will never forget them... i guess i shouldn't really say goodbye... i hope our paths will one day cross again, so untill we meet again dear friends, i will turn the page, and end this chapter of our intertwining lives, and begin a new one... a fresh start with a new batch of stories that one day i will hopefully get to share with you...

Untill our next chapter.